Today, I woke up and it seems like it is going to be one of those days where my thoughts want to be negative. Sometimes that happens, I wake up not feeling optimistic. Nothing specific triggers it at times, it just happens. I am excited because I am aware that it happened. Also, because I am choosing to not become trapped in focusing on how low I feel. It was good to say, what I do with those feelings is a choice. I can choose to become a victim of how I feel or find ways to nurture who I want to become. 

There is nothing better to help my mind focus on becoming a victor instead of a victim than fixing my eyes on things above. 

“So if you’re serious about living this new resurrection life with Christ, act like it. Pursue the things over which Christ presides. Don’t shuffle along, eyes to the ground, absorbed with the things right in front of you. Look up, and be alert to what is going on around Christ—that’s where the action is. See things from his perspective. Your old life is dead…”  Colossians 3:2-4a The Message 

If I am serious about becoming what God desires, I must follow my commitment to him, even when I don’t feel like it. I must pursue Jesus' way and that includes the way he thought. When I do so, God meets me on the road and gives me exactly what I need to not become weary of doing what he calls me to do. 

As I reflect on the negative thoughts that found room in my mind, I can recognize that it comes from a pool of lies and deceit. It’s easier to recognize these thoughts and deal with them quickly when I spend time with God. 

The following prayer from 2003 is a reminder that when I chose God first, I will be okay regardless of how I feel.

“Father you truly are an awesome God. All I gotta do is look at my surroundings and everything around me display’s your name, power, promises, and love. From the smallest thing like a drop of water to the biggest thing, like the beautiful sky, one thing I know is that you are in control and will make it obvious to me what you desire for my day today. That’s why when I don’t get to connect with you before my day begins I feel like I’m on a roller coaster.” September 11, 2003.

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